Wow, this prompt would come up when I have a bit of writer’s block. My mind is so consumed right now, it seems to have left no room to think of other things. I’m scared, worried…..

Lets just hope that I have the opportunity to find that my fears were unwaranted. Excuse the spelling, I know that’s not right, but I just don’t care at the moment.

Wow, somehow this seems to be a difficult subject to talk about. I guess when it comes down to it, I have several “next steps”. It just depends on the day and time. *LOL* My next step is to get the laundry in the drier for the moment.

My next step when it comes to working with Chief is to get him to settle down while I brush him on both sides.

My next step when it comes to schooling, is to make the grade sheets on the computer.

Craft projects, the next step is the girls’ quilts.

I have many steps in my life. Do you?

It’s funny that Sunday Scribblings prompt is for cake, as I was just thinking about that last night. Meg’s birthday is quickly approaching, and I’m not at all prepared!!! We got the invitations out, and I got one of her presents ordered, but that’s all. I need to sit down this week and finish planning out all the food I will need, plates, cups, etc. Des and I need to go finish doing our shopping, and get the stuff wrapped.

I am rather annoyed though, because on all the invitations I put “please contact me” if you are coming, so I could get an idea of how much food we’d need, and not one person has called to confirm, even though I am sure that some of them will be there.

Anyway, I’d better move along.

I haven’t done a “Sunday Scribblings” post in a very long time, but I’m trying to get back into devoting time to my blogs, other than just the work I do. So here goes…..

I really don’t know if I’ve ever been a messenger, or even encountered a messenger, other than yahoo messenger of course. *LOL* However there have been times when I am so sad, frustrated, stressed out, or lonely, and it seems I can feel the comfort of my lost ones around me. My guardian angels? Perhaps. It is a comfort to know that they are there with me.

Miscellaneous is a word that fits my life perfectly. I feel that I have a miscellaneously filled life, with the girls, the home, work, my animals, my family, my hobbies…All this miscellaneous stuff is what my life is….I am glad to have a life filled with a bit of this, and a bit of that, as I know I would be bored if I had a structured life, with only a few things going on……There are times that I wish that I had less to do, but really it’s a matter of really wishing for more time, in order to accomplish all that it is that I want to do.

hmmm….interesting topic this week! It’s really kind of hard for me to think of something to write on this subject.

Two of the dates that stand out in my mind are the days that my beautiful children were born. Those will be days that I will always remember!! Desi was a “Dr, you better hurry up and catch” and Meg well, she was a bit more painful, but almost as quick….I remember when they were first placed in my arms…The apprehension I felt, wondering what kind of mother I would be, the wonderment that this beautiful little person was inside me, and the joy that God had given me these special gifts.

Well, as I mentioned in an earlier post, my resolutions are posted at the top of my sidebar, so I won’t repeat them here..

I have many hopes for this new year, so unexpected things that I’m hoping/praying for, and some that I have been praying about for a long time.

One that I didn’t think I would ever be thinking or wondering about again, is whether there is a Mr. Right out there for me somewhere. I am still basically paralyzed in fear of another relationship, and yet I have the yearning in my heart to have a husband and more children.

The girls have gotten really centered around competition…always asking or saying that they did something better than XXX…I’m not thrilled with this!!! I am forever telling them that it does not matter if they did something better than someone else, but what does matter is that they did it the best they could!!

I can see the point about if Mary sees Jim doing a better job, than she will strive to do better herself, but on the other hand…I think this world is too centered around being “better than everyone else”…I thought one of the points to life itself was to be the best that YOU can be…not the best that everyone else is….To do the best that YOU can do, not the best that everyone else can do!!

I can not say that I condone the “spirit” of competition…Yes, I would let my girls play sports, if that’s what they wanted to do, but with the understanding that they were doing it for the fun of it! To try and better themselves at that sport…

When the girls and I play games, if someone starts getting a bad attitude because they are losing, it is an immediate game over…do not pass go…end of story…they have since learned that we are playing because it is fun to sit down and play cards or a board games together…no matter who wins or who loses…and that even though they lost this time, next time they might win…Or in the case of certain card games, or games like checkers, if one continually loses, they start paying more attention to the game, and making wiser choices as to their moves.

This is my take on competition.

I love walking!! I would walk just about anywhere if I could!! Thankfully the girls like walking too, so when the weather is nice, that’s what we do a lot!!

I love walking in the rain especially! It’s cool and soothing to me…The rain holds a peace in it, that comes to me, when I’m walking out in it. Drops of God’s love, is the way I think about it!!

Walking in the snow, it has a magical presence in it…Everything is so peaceful and pristine…When I think of walking in the snow, I think of God washing all my sins away…leaving me with a clean and pristine life to build on.

Well, I think whether my youth was misspent depends on who you talk to. From my perspective, I was generally a mature child, not too wild, but always pushing the limits a bit more than my sister, at least in certain cases.

I always hungered for friends, more friends than I already had, which looking back was one way that I misspent my youth…not being appreciative for the friends that I already had!!

Another way, and I think the greatest way that I misspent my youth, was always seeking everyone’s approval. From family members to strangers, it didn’t matter to me, I wanted their approval, their praise.

Something else that I spent way too much time thinking about, was how unhappy I was with myself!! From my attitude to my body, it didn’t matter there either, I was never happy with the person I was…Now, I wish I was more like the person I used to be, and am seeking to find that person inside of me…..