Vicki's Blog

Life

Spent part of the day in Kansas City today getting new glasses and contacts for everyone. Dad even went along and got new glasses. Des will finally be able to get contacts, and we all hope that she can wear them with no problems. The Dr. didn’t forsee any problems, so that’s a big relief to Des as she has always hated wearing glasses.

After we got home we let Chief out for awhile. Des did some training with him, and he sort of cooperated. She didn’t get to catch him like she wanted, but she did get to feed him treats and learn how to approach him. She was thrilled, and I was too.

I am yearning to be able to work with Chief again, but the horrible mud here complicates things immensely. He needs his feet worked on, though it is not critical yet. He also is in bad need of a good brushing. Plus it is our hope and prayer that we will get to saddle break him this year, but this won’t happen as long as we are living here.

Our search for a house is still seeming impossible. There just isn’t much available. We went to the bank to see if we could get financed for the Aliceville house, but as expected Dad’s credit isn’t good enough because of his name being on a bill of my sister’s that she hasn’t been making regular payments on. It makes me want to cry to know that we could have gotten the financing if it wasn’t for her bills!! I suppose that is all water under the bridge, as the only thing that would help us now is for her to refinance that bill, and get my Dad’s name off of it!!

Enough for now I think. My wrists are already hurting, I’m tired, and I have work entries to do.

New Car

I’m getting a car on Monday. It’s not new new, but it’s new to me. It’s a light gray with green interior. A ‘95 Ford Taurus. We went car shopping yesterday and looked at several possibilities, and this was the one that Dad and I both liked the best. Very little rust on the underside, just a few minor dings in the body. The interior needs a good vacuuming, but it is in good shape overall. The air and heater seemed to work fine, and oh yes, the radio works!!! The girls and I have missed listening to music soooooo much!!

Along with car shopping yesterday we did some other shopping. The girls got a few more t-shirts and jeans that they needed. Everybody got cowboy boots yesterday which was a fun suprise! Even the horse got spoiled with some treats and a new grain feeder!! We also got a new hackmore bit for him, but I’m not sure he will be quite as happy with that as he is his new grain feeder. *LOL*

It was quite a fun day!!!

Moving Soon!!

Well, it looks like we can finally move as soon as I find us a house.

We wanted to move back into our old house, but a price still hasn’t been set, and we just don’t want to continue to wait around to find out if it’s even possible for us to afford that house. Hopefully when they finally do set a price, we will still be in a position to buy it, but in the mean time, I am on a fervent search for a house for us to rent ASAP!!!

With luck, and a bit of divine intervention, we will be moving this weekend…I HOPE!!!!!!!

The Way It Is

Recently someone asked me if I would be interested in meeting an aquaintance of his, and said something to the effect that I needed more of a life than going from the trailer to the house. I needed human/adult interaction. I didn’t take offense at what he said, and agreed that he could pass my email address on to the aquaintance of his.

A few days later I excitedly received an email, and replied. That went on for a few days, made plans to go out to lunch on the weekend, etc. The whole time I was really excited about the encounter. He even came over Saturday to try and help fix the car. After that, we went, with the girls, out to eat, and then over to see his place. It was during that day that I realized that wasn’t what I wanted. It had nothing to do with the guy, he seems like a nice enough fellow, it has to do with ME.

I am happy with my life as a single parent. I am happy keeping house for Dad, and it just being the 4 of us. I realized I didn’t want that to change, that I was happy and content with my life the way it is, so why would I set out to change it?? In answer….I’m not going to!!! My life will remain as it is….The girls, Dad, and I.

For adult/human interaction, I have my Mom, brothers and sisters that I can visit, go out with, and enjoy being with. Without the strings that companionship with others seem to bring. I am still in control of my life, of my wants, needs, bills, and etc. I like my life exactly (with the exception of needing to move) the way it is, so I’m not going to change it.

I love my life!! and on that note…it’s time for me to go pick up the girls from school, go home and see how Dad is feeling.

Update

Personal entries are few and far between these days I know, and I apologize. So much of life will be better when we finally get to move again, but for now we hang on, and try to stay strong. Living where we are has been a strain, and becomes more of a strain as the days pass. Arguing and bad tempers are becoming a daily thing, but we will survive, for just a little longer.

The girls return to school tomorrow, for which we are all thankful. The girls have missed school, which is apparent in the fact that they have been playing school almost their entire vacation. It will be good for both them and me to be able to get away from here for a few hours on a daily basis again.

We were kept busy during their vacation, as they both participated in a program called Star Struck in a nearby town. They learned a song, with a group, and then performed the song on stage last night at the Burlington Opry. They were beautiful and wonderful!! I am so proud of them for their hard work!! They are hoping to do it again, and I am hoping they do it again too!! They had so much fun, and were so wonderful! I am saddened that Bubble didn’t choose to come, but I suppose it was their choice to again not support the girls in something. It is normal, I shouldn’t be upset and disappointed, but I am!! I was there, Dad was there, and the girls were happy with that!! Lots of people at the show told the girls how good they had done, it made them really happy to recieve so many compliments. I am hoping that next time maybe some of the other family can come and see them, like Sonia, Sue, Adam and Mom, but we will have to wait and see. They live lots farther away, and money is tighter for them. At least the girls knew that they would have been there if they could have been, they know that they have that love and support.

Update

This should, in theory, be a very long update, but I doubt it will bee, as I have so many other things to do, and my hands are shaking so it’s hard to type, and my wrist hurts which makes it even more difficult.

I’ve almost got the Christmas shopping done, and most everything is wrapped. I am looking forward to Christmas, and am also rather sad that it has to come while we are not in our own house. I always found Christmas more enjoyable when I had my own things around me, and could set the rules on how I wanted it to work. The girls would help me decorate the house, the busy preparations for our Christmas dinner, but it is not to be this year. Really it’s okay though, as I have my girls with me, and that is the most important thing!!

The girls have a Christmas party at school tomorrow, and they will get out early, then they will be on vacation until after the 1st. It will be nice to have them home, and have some time to relax and just enjoy each other’s company. We also have several things going on while they have a break from school, including a shopping trip after Christmas.

Well anyway, I think I’m going to finish up my entries on my other blog, and call it a day. Who knows when I will have time to get back on here. Merry Christmas to you all!!!!

Living With People

I’m not cut out to live with most people, that’s just the facts. I don’t mind living with Dad as we have basically the same way of doing things, the same standard of housekeeping, and we both like the same things. But to live with other people just irritates the dickens out of me, and I’ve lived with a lot of people over the years.

Another thing that I don’t like about living with someone, or even being around someone a lot, is that what they may think is funny, I don’t. Or when someone starts a conversation, that isn’t really funny to begin with, and one of the girls says something in response to that and gets jumped all over for it, when it wasn’t them that was in the wrong to start with. Ugh, yep, I prefer being on my own with the girls, instead of spending loads of time around other people.

Simple fact is, I really don’t like people, or at least not very many people. Animals are much simpler, and usually much kinder. I will sure be glad when this time in my life is over, and we move on to other things, where life can be simply us again.

In Memory of Mr. Fuzzy

I don’t have any pictures on this computer, so I can’t post one of the many pictures I have of him, but know that he may not have been a handsome fellow to some, but to me he was most handsome.

Fuzzy was an old stray cat that came to my Dad’s house many years ago. He was king of the country, no cat messed with him much, as he had already proved to them that they couldn’t beat him.

A few years ago I moved and took him with me. I wasn’t sure how happy he would be as an inside cat, but I knew that he was getting too old to survive outside. Much to my suprise, he loved living the easy life inside, and even more suprising is that he always used the litter pan when he was able.

You see, among many other injuries, he had a digestive problem and often had accidents as a result. I never held that against him.

I have known for a long time that his time to leave me was coming, and a few days ago, I made the choice to have him put down. He was so sick, and crippled up from previous injuries, he was just so misirable that he told me it was his time.

It is hard having him gone now, even though I know he is in a much better place. His love and comfort brought me through many many hard times, and I will never forget him, and will always love him.

As my tears flow I hope he looks down from Heaven and realizes how much I loved him, and how much I miss him!!

Stuff

My mind is in a boggle tonight, can’t really think of anything to talk about.

The weather has been rather chilly and wet lately. I don’t really mind the wet except that it makes Chief’s corral all muddy, which makes it nearly impossible, and even rather dangerous to do any work with him. I really wish we had had acouple more months of summerish temperatures. I was enjoying myself so much spending part of my day brushing him, and working with him. I had all sorts of plans on things I could do with him, but then the weather changed and I haven’t gotten it done. I can only hope that this winter will be a short one.

Dad has been home almost all week sick. He left Monday morning as planned, but then came home only a few hours later because he wasn’t feeling well. Thankfully he is starting to feel better again. At least he picked a good week to get sick, he doesn’t have many bills due. *LOL* Hey, you have to look on the bright side of things.

Well anyway, guess it’s time for me to quit loafing and get back to work.

My Girls

Well life is moving along quite nicely. The girls are doing well in school. Making friends, behaving well in school, and making decent grades.

They were both invited to, and attended a birthday party today. They had a good time. They got to have pizza and cake, and then went bowling. *S* They had a lot of fun, I’m only sorry that I wasn’t there to see it, but I don’t suppose Mom can be hanging over their shoulder’s all the time.

Here at home I’ve had some problems with attitudes and not wanting to do anything to help out, but that has only surfaced in the last week or so, and I will quickly nip it in the bud. We’ve been working a lot on the tone of voice that we use is just as important as the words that we use.

We’ve been doing well with our reading too. We haven’t read EVERY night, but lots of nights. I have seen both the girls improving with their reading skills, and I enjoy hearing them and listening to them.

Well anyway, I think that’s enough for tonight.