Desi’s Birthday
Happy Birthday Baby!!!
A little late, as her birthday was the 23rd, but that does not change what I want to say.
9 years ago the most precious gift was give to me by God. She was so tiny to me. 7 pounds even, 20 inches long….Not really a small baby, but she seemed as if I would break her. I looked at her and could not even imagine her growing up. I remember being so scared!!! I hadn’t been around babies at all growing up, so I really had no idea what to do!! I was so afraid that people wouldn’t think that I was a good parent, and I soooo wanted to be the best parent possible!!!
As the years have passed I have looked on in wonder at this beautiful little girl, that is growing into a beautiful young lady. I remember so many moments of Des growing up, first steps, first time riding a bike, first words…and there are still so many firsts to come…I am sad that those years are gone, but so excited about what is to come….I have seen my girl with food from head to toe (literally), when she was first learning how to feed herself, with a silly little grin saying “I’ve got it now, Mom!”. I have seen her bursting with pride when she finally GOT riding a bike with no training wheels. I have seen her crying when she got hit in the head with a soccer ball, but going right back on the field to try again. I have seen her sick, and held her when she was puking. She has been cuddled up with me in bed or on the couch when she has been sick, or scared, or just wanted cuddle time. These may not seem like anything really special to anyone else, but they are to me.
I can’t really say where I am going with this entry, I just wanted to share some of these memories, as I know some of you will know what I mean, and I wanted to try (without much success) to convey how I feel about my baby.
It seems she is growing up much too fast and yet every day is a precious moment. She is so smart, and funny. Beautiful inside and out. Caught between wanting to be a kid and wanting to grow up.
Baby girl, I love you with all of my heart and I always will!!! Every time you hug me, or tell me that you love me, touches me. You make me feel like the best Mom in the world!! I could not have asked for a better daughter, despite the issue that we have sometimes!!! I hope that you continue to think of me as your best friend!! You are my light, my darling, my reason for living!!!
I hope this has been a good birthday for you, and I wish you the happiest of lives!! Remember that I love you!!
September 26 2008 09:42 pm | Family News
