Depressed
Not only am I depressed about having to go back to work, now we add in depressed that I haven’t been able to find a job!!! Stressed out so badly right now….wondering what I’m going to do, how I’m going to keep a roof over my girls’ heads…Oh I know I’ll figure out something…we’ll survive this somehow, we always do….but I’m still stressed and depressed right now.
It’s almost 5am, no sleep again tonight….Can’t tell you when I’ve slept more than a couple of hours…That’s what stress does to me, and stress outweighs the depression, that has me wanting to sleep all the time to avoid the world.
To top it all off, Meg has been saying for days that her left eye hurts…I didn’t think much of it, but she continues to say it, so have to make a Dr.’s appointment for her tomorrow….and I have had a small bump on the side of my neck for years, but recently it has become tender to the touch, so guess I need to get that checked out….
I’m grouchy and irritable because I’m stressed, and I quit smoking a few days ago…*sigh* Like now was the time to quit!!! I’m just so worried right now, and scared, and not understanding why nobody seems to be taking a second look at my resume!!! I mean, I have a decent work history, I’m qualified for several different positions, I’m reliable or at least as reliable as a single parent can be….I know God has something in store for me, when HIS time is right, but I have to wonder what I”m supposed to tell the bill collectors in the mean time!!!
*sigh* Well I guess I’m going to get out of here…maybe see if I can lay down until the Dr.’s office opens…Need to go turn in some more resumes later today, if the Dr doesn’t hold us up too much. If you could keep my family in your prayers…it would be very much appreciated!!! Thank you for thinking of us!!!
September 22 2008 05:54 am | Family News
September 26th, 2008 at 2:48 am
Sigh. Here I am just living life, and I have not even IMed you or anything. What a friend I am!!
I had hoped I would come here and find out you are doing great, just too busy to talk, but I am sorry to read you are depressed.
I will be lifting you up in prayer my dear!
Love you and the girls, and I hope that Meg’s eye heals too. Give them a hug from all of us, and you take care.
1Peter 5
5 Likewise, ye younger, submit yourselves unto the elder. Yea, all of you be subject one to another, and be clothed with humility: for God resisteth the proud, and giveth grace to the humble.
6 Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:
7 Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.
8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:
9 Whom resist stedfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world.
10 But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you.
11 To him be glory and dominion for ever and ever. Amen.
LOVE YOU!!
~J