I’m not much of a cooking person. I can do it okay, but just don’t enjoy it all that much. However when cooking I almost always need to have recipes, as I would be lost without them. I don’t mind deviating from the recipe, by adding more of something, or a little less of something, and sometimes I do add things that aren’t even on the recipe, but I need that base recipe to work off of.
Our Halloween plans don’t amount to much, as I’m sure some of you are glad to hear…*LOL*…Halloween is such a controversial subject, and I have to admit that I’m not entirely sure where I stand on the subject. But the facts boil down to the fact that we won’t be sending out Halloween invitations, because we don’t have money for a party…I’m not even sure that I will have money for costumes for the girls. We’ll have to wait and see.
Being a Chicago accident attorney was a far cry from the tough criminal stuff that he had always dreamed of doing….but you had to take what you could get…right?? He was making good money, he didn’t have the stress of having his own practice, had steady income, didn’t have to put in all the man-hours that were necesary for criminal cases.
Being here in this place for drug treatment wasn’t exactly what she had had in mind, but she had to admit that drug rehab wasn’t really so bad. It was something even she herself could admit that she had needed, still needed in fact. Her mother had been her saving grace in this matter….After only a few months of drug use, her mother had laid it out flat to her…she would go to rehab, and she would stay and get clean…There were no if’s, and’s or but’s…That was the way her mother was….She herself had obeyed, because that was how she was raised…you obeyed your parents, no matter how old you were….and it had been what was best for her.
Not only am I depressed about having to go back to work, now we add in depressed that I haven’t been able to find a job!!! Stressed out so badly right now….wondering what I’m going to do, how I’m going to keep a roof over my girls’ heads…Oh I know I’ll figure out something…we’ll survive this somehow, we always do….but I’m still stressed and depressed right now.
It’s almost 5am, no sleep again tonight….Can’t tell you when I’ve slept more than a couple of hours…That’s what stress does to me, and stress outweighs the depression, that has me wanting to sleep all the time to avoid the world.
To top it all off, Meg has been saying for days that her left eye hurts…I didn’t think much of it, but she continues to say it, so have to make a Dr.’s appointment for her tomorrow….and I have had a small bump on the side of my neck for years, but recently it has become tender to the touch, so guess I need to get that checked out….
I’m grouchy and irritable because I’m stressed, and I quit smoking a few days ago…*sigh* Like now was the time to quit!!! I’m just so worried right now, and scared, and not understanding why nobody seems to be taking a second look at my resume!!! I mean, I have a decent work history, I’m qualified for several different positions, I’m reliable or at least as reliable as a single parent can be….I know God has something in store for me, when HIS time is right, but I have to wonder what I”m supposed to tell the bill collectors in the mean time!!!
*sigh* Well I guess I’m going to get out of here…maybe see if I can lay down until the Dr.’s office opens…Need to go turn in some more resumes later today, if the Dr doesn’t hold us up too much. If you could keep my family in your prayers…it would be very much appreciated!!! Thank you for thinking of us!!!
