I Shouldn’t Be Here
But here I sit….First I want to thank ALL of you that posted your opinions, and advice on my previous post!!! I am so thankful to have this network so I can receive advice on subjects that trouble me!!
I am exhausted….haven’t seen my bed (basically) since Sunday morning….Yesturday morning my sister called and needed some help with something, so we went out. Ended up spending most of the day out there…
When we did get home, it was nice outside, so I let the girls play outside for a bit while I checked my email….and than I found a friend online that I hadn’t been able to talk to for several days. So what I meant to be a pretty short conversation, ended up being a long one…..Thank you my dear friend for taking the time out of your busy life to lend me a shoulder!!
I should be doing schoolwork with the girls, or should be doing some work, or I should be sleeping, and yet….and yet my mind keeps racing….This happens from time to time with me…My mind is so busy with thoughts that I can’t concentrate on what I should be doing….*sigh*…..It’s one situation that is filling my mind….over and over again it plays in my head, like a tv show re-run, or a song that you have stuck in your head….These thoughts, these emotions have their own little seperate box in my head, and in my heart, but yesturday the box was opened, and now my mind is running rampant…I never should have opened the box yesterday, I’m not even sure how the box got opened…*sigh*….I need to deal with this, instead of tucking it away inside of me…I know that…I know that is what I need to do, for my peace, and for my girls, but whenever I think of these things, all I can think of is the hurt and the anger…
Have you ever wanted to bang your head on the wall?? That’s about how I feel right now….
February 26 2008 09:17 am | Family News
February 26th, 2008 at 9:13 pm
Sounds like the start of a mystery book….Can I help? Or am I part of it that’s making you bang your head on the wall?….*L*
Love ya…
February 27th, 2008 at 6:05 am
Hello dear Ms Vicki!
I am sorry you’re been feeling so down lately. I know the feeling.
“Have you ever wanted to bang your head on the wall??” YES!
Praying for you and thinking of you. We all think of you and your girls as dear friends. Wished you lived closer so we could invite you over for lunch.
I will send out your package as soon as I get your address on it. It’s been sitting by the door, but I’ve been so busy I haven’t been able to!
Love
MJ
February 27th, 2008 at 11:55 am
Vicki,
I have wanted to bang my head on a wall, but then that would hurt, huh?
I hope your spirits brighten up!
Just remembering this encouraging verse from Paul: “Romans 8:28
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”
Everything is working out for God’s glory! love to you and the girlies!
Love, Prayers and Blessings,
Miss Amanda
http://superangelsblog.com
February 28th, 2008 at 3:23 am
Hi!!!
Just wanted to go ahead and let you know who your secret sister is… ME!!!
I think the reveal is a little later this week, but I thought it would be fun to say Hi a little bit early.
I have really enjoyed being your secret sister and hope that I’ve been an encouragement to you over the last month or so. I wanted to do so much more for you, but Jan and Feb turned out to be really difficult months for me as I recently found out that I am having another little bundle of joy… this was totally unexpected as I am “medically infertile”, but God is an awesome God and we are a bit surprised, but so excited!!!
Needless to say, I have been really sick over the last month and a half and I do apologize that I was unable to write more and be more of a “sister” to you. Please know that I have been thinking about you and have also been covering you and your family in prayer esp over the last few weeks.
With all that being said, please be expecting at least one more package from me … probably sometime next week.
Please feel free to check out my website… I actually have 4 blogs, but this is my personal one.
Hope you are having a wonderful week and I do hope that we can continue to get to know each other a little bit better now that you know who I am. (((HUGS!!!)))
Angela
February 29th, 2008 at 2:25 am
Thank you for your prayers for Caleb. I posted an update on him. Hope all is well with you.
Blessings!
MJ
March 1st, 2008 at 8:00 pm
I’m sorry you are feeling bad Vicki, I’ll be praying for you! Yes, I too have wanted to bang my head on the wall, I’ve never actually come to the point when I did though…
I am working on the post on courtship, so that will be coming within a few days.
RYC: Yes, it is fun to learn trivial stuff about people, as I filled out that tag I had a bunch of ideas for new posts. Lol.
Go with God!
Eric
March 2nd, 2008 at 2:03 am
Hello Vicki…
Just popping in to see how you are! Haven’t heard from you in a couple days and just wanted to say that I have been thinking about you and praying for you! ((HUGS))
Take care!
Love,
Miss Amanda
http://superangelsblog.com
March 3rd, 2008 at 2:21 am
Just know that wherever you are, God knew you would be exactly where you are at the exact moment you are there…. so, I suppose you *are* supposed to be where you are. Forget the wall….. no use banging your head. Instead, grab the girls and have a giant giggle session. Or get out the Word and close your eyes and start praying out loud by reading the Psalms. Cry out to Him. He knows where you are, desirous of head-against-wall-banging and all!! That is NOT where he would have you be (I know you know that!!)… He wants you whole~mentally, physically and spiritually.
He has brought you to this place for His purpose for such a time as this… And you and the girls are just in such a bright place in Him right now… stay there, and don’t let *anything* set you back!!!
Love you dear sister….
Ca~bug is doing better. I am so glad we went to the hospital last night. The Dr. gave me more info and set my mind at ease and also checked him out (which we didn’t get to have a Dr. do ’cause the office was closed!)… Thanks for all your love. I am sorry we haven’t been able to talk much… I have had little sleep, and only at 3-4hr increments…. :O
Praying for you to be able to unpack the box, keep the treasures and chuck the rest upon the Lord to burn to stubble. He is all-merciful and knows our hearts and minds even better than we do ourselves. I am thankful He gave me what I needed last night, but am confident it is just a part of His faithfulness…. as He is to you too!
Love, J