Vicki’s Blog

Tired

Tired tonight, been a long weekend…Will be back in the swing of things soon, and get in here to do a better entry.

Note

I’m sorry, somehow skipped doing an entry yesturday. And there won’t be much of one right now…Am depressed, and stressed to tears, so don’t want to hang around here….Will catch up with everyone in a few days.

Not Much

Not much going on tonight…defrosted the 2 freezers here at work, and somehow or another I ended up basically being wet head to toe!!! Don’t ask me how that happened, because I don’t have a clue!!! I did however discover that I don’t want to ever have to do that again…I don’t know, is there a wrong way to defrost a freezer?? How do you get the water out of the bottom of them?? Gee, I sound smart don’t I?? Oh well….

I am tired tonight, and wishing it was the weekend, but then the weekend always flys by so fast…Doesn’t really seem like I’ve had a day off in months, because the weekends go by so quickly that I don’t even remember them..Ahh, for a vacation, but that is still months down the road.

School for the girls has been okay….It’s not real easy, because we are doing it on the floor, and that gets uncomfortable after awhile, maybe someday I can afford kitchen chairs so we can at least do school at the table….What I would actual like to do is get 2 little desks, or typing tables or something, so they each have their own workspace, that does not double as our kitchen table…But again that is down the road.

House is still a mess, but then isn’t it always….Did get some dishes washed and put away tonight. So that is good. Although probably nobody else could tell if they came to visit…Kitchen still has boxes in the floor waiting to be put away…and the livingroom, well it’s still got some boxes too, as well as a mountain of laundry…I have washed and put away I think 3 different mountains, and yet I have another one waiting for me…*shakes head* Dang, that reminds me I have clothes in the washer that needs switched out before it starts stinking or molding…EWWWW!!!!!….

I can put off paying bills no longer….HAS to be done tomorrow…Have car/life insurance due, I think tomorrow, and I might as well pay a few others while I am out and around…

Kids, dog and I walked down to the library today….Is a pretty good walk, and was really pleased that the girls didn’t start whining about being tired or some such!!! They have gotten back into the spirit of walking again, for which I am glad…Used to be they would trek for miles, but then lately have whined about going around the block, so am happy to see they are getting back to be more walking minded…..

Desi hasn’t seemed happy with anything lately….She doesn’t like peanut butter on sandwhiches, so I bought bologna, then she said she didn’t like bologna…then the other night when we were at my sister’s, I made her a ham sandwhich, and she complains that she doesn’t want ham….Today on the way back from the library I let the girls stop and play on the school playground for a few minutes…Desi complains because there aren’t any swings…..*holds head* Seems she isn’t happy with ANYTHING lately, and it is really bugging me!!!! Not to mention depressing me, because it’s like she’s saying I’m not being a good enough parent…..or at least that’s how I interpret it…

Okay, call me silly, or maybe dumb would be a better word, but how in the world do you spell “sandwhiches”???…..I hit the spellcheck, because I thought “interpret” looked funky, and it is telling me that “sandwhich” and “sandwhiches” are wrong…go figure!!! *L*

Anyway, enough babbling for one night. Sure hope everyone is okay, and hasn’t gotten bored of me already!!! I haven’t gotten many notes on the last few entries, which is what got me thinking about you all being bored of me…

Night all!!!

New Ideas

I have been thinking about doing something different here, and on my other blog, or should I say my other blog about my daily life…(I haven’t gotten the link on my blogroll yet, but I will be doing that soon)….I have found it silly to have 2 blogs about my daily life, so have been thinking about incorporating some things that I have seen on other blogs, like “Thankful Thursday’s”, as well as maybe some favorite Bible verses and my thoughts on them…..What do you guys think?? Kind of switch off between which blog gets the daily entry for that day…..

Also, had a question, is there anything I have to do for things like “Thankful Thursdays”, and another one I’ve seen is “Monday Memories”…I heard somewhere that I might have to sign up to do them or something…Anyway, any info would be great!!!

Thanks for visiting me!!! LOVE reading your notes!!!!!!!

Monster79 Reviews

If you will notice, there is a new addition to my “blogroll”…It is called Monster79 Reviews. It is a site created by me, well okay, so my friend Carolyn actually set it up for me (Thanks a million, Carolyn!!!!), but it is another site written by me, and was my concept. In this new blog, I will be writing about books, movies….and well, I left the whole speal over there for you to read….I am really looking forward to this new blog, so please pop over there, and take a look, and let me know what you think!!!!

www.prairierosesamongthorns.com/reviews

Today

*sighs* Not really a good day, as I have had a headache all day, as well as yesturday…Makes for a long, and rather unpleasant weekend….The noise that the girls have been making has been unbearable with this headache..Hope it goes away soon!!! Headaches are not uncommon for me, they are a part of my daily life, unfortunetly, although in recent months with the aid of a muscle relaxer, they haven’t been as bad, but even the MR hasn’t been helping this headache. Pray for me, I could really use a break from this headache!!!

Other then that, not a lot going on here…Went over to my Dad’s/sister’s house this afternoon, and stayed for dinner. Did a little cleaning and putting away yesturday. Got depressed because of my weight…hmm, yep, that’s about it…

Kids are anxiously awaiting Monday’s school, which is kind of nice…I was having to fight with them to do their schoolwork before this break, and now they are asking to do school…Is it too much to hope that it lasts for awhile??

*yawns* Don’t know why I’m tired, my day is usually just beginning at this time…*LOL*

Hmm, I don’t think I’ve told you about my other children…my pets. I have a German Shephard, who’s name is King. He is a real sweetheart, but very protective, especially of the girls. Poor fellow, I adopted him from a shelter, a few years ago, and he was so scared for like 3 days that he would literally not walk…I had to carry him everywhere!!! He has had injuries to both back legs, and had surgery on one of them. And currently needs to go to the Vet again, because he is limping on one of his front legs, although I have NO clue what he did this time.

I have a Ball Python snake named Slither. A few months ago, before I broke up with my significant other, I had LOTS of snakes, and was trying to get a reptile breeding business off the ground, but after we broke up, it was too much for me to deal with, so I sold all the other ones. I couldn’t bear to part with Slither though. It’s rather funny really, because there was a time that I couldn’t stand snakes, but then my SO heard of acouple for sale near us, Slither being one of them, and after thinking about it, we decided to go ahead and get them…I didn’t want the girls growing up afraid of snakes, just because I was, if they didn’t like snakes, I wanted it to be their own decision, not just because I didn’t like them…Well anyway, I ended up falling in love with them…

I also have 2 cats…both from my sister. One’s name is Chubby, and a few days after moving here, he accidently got out, and ended up walking the 10 blocks or so back to my sisters house..The other cat is named Mr. Fuzzy…He was just an old stray that started hanging around my sister’s house, who eventually got friendly, and this winter decided he was too old to stay outside, so started coming in the house…He’s a handsome fellow, at least in my eyes…black/gray/and white long hair…One eye is blind, and rolled back in his head so it doesn’t even look like it’s there, from some catfight I’d assume…the back of his ears are all torn up, from catfights, but I’m trying to get them all healed up…He’s had injuries to one or both of his front legs, making them not work quite right, but he’s my baby none-the-less. My sister is trying to move the first part of April, so I told her that I wanted to take Mr. Fuzzy with me…He has adjusted to being an inside cat marvolously!!! He is very lovable and lazy these days. Even though he was trying to help me type a few minutes ago, *LOL*, which wasn’t working so well..he is laying on my lap now, annoyed with the keyboard shelf being pulled out, and taking part of HIS lap…*LOL*

Well anyway, guess I have babbled enough for now…*hugs* to all!!!

Thank you for all the notes, I am sooooo happy that you come visit me!!!!

What I Do

Someone asked me what I do, so thought I would write an entry about it, and maybe a few tidbits of something else…

I work for a company called COF. Basically it comes down to helping Mentally Challenged people….There is a workshop where they go to work, as well as people to help them get jobs in our community, we provide transportation for them, to get to their jobs, as well as to the store and medical appointments. One part of our company is called Supported Living (SL), where we as staff go by their houses to check on them, help make grocery lists, take them to the store for food as well as any other supplies they need, help them cook if they need it, give some of them their medications, and there are fun activities as well, like basketball teams, softball teams, outings to the bowling alley, KC Royals games, and other things like that…And then the other part of our company is Residential  Living, for the people that are not ready to live on their own. I work at one of the Residential Houses. Again much of it is the same as Supported Living, except that there is staff here all the time..We give medications, we cook, we clean, we help them buy their supplies…basically the only difference is that we do a lot more of these things, then the SL staff, because our people in the houses are not quite as self-sufficiant. What do I personally do, at night, well, I do cleaning that has not been done during the day for one reason or another, sometimes it’s dishes, other times it’s mopping floors….I also do things like defrost the freezers, and certain things that aren’t really done on a regular basis…I am also on hand to dispense medicines if anyone should need it….I also do hourly checks on certain people, because they have a history of seizures. And really that’s all there is to my job. We have people that are Autistic, people that have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), people with Down Syndrome, people with skitsophrenia (forgive me, as I had NO clue how to spell it, so spelled it how it sounded), and other problems of the like…We also deal with depression pretty regularly from one person or another, as well as self-injurious people, runaways, and sometimes sucidal people. Sometimes I think I have a really easy job, considering I don’t have that much to do in 8 hours, but really it’s not easy. There has to be someone here for “just in case”, and it can be a VERY stressful job, but it can also be a very rewarding job. Some of our people are just about the sweetest people you will ever meet in your life!!! And others, who may be a bit more difficult still find their way into your heart, or at least they do mine….

Okay, so enough about my job for the moment….Tonight is my Friday…thank goodness…am ready for a break, even if it is only for 2 days!!!! Although I don’t know how much of a break it will be, as I have loads to do this weekend, to finish getting my house in order.

House has to be in order by Monday, because that is when we are starting school again…Although how we will manage that I don’t know, because I don’t have any chairs for them to sit on!!! *holds head* Have the computer chair, but the arms on it hold it out away from the table or desk too far to do my little ones any good, and I don’t have kitchen chairs yet, for that matter I have no livingroom furniture yet either…Oh well, guess we will figure something out, because school has to start on Monday again…Has been like 2 weeks, maybe even 3 since we did any, and that would be my fault, as I have been too stressed out, along with trying to get settled to even want to think about school….The girls are anxious to get started again, so will make up ground quickly I think.

Have to sit down and pay bills too…Oh joy…am cringing at the thought!!!!! God help me to be able to provide for my Girls!!!!!

Guilty I Am

Well today was the day that Desi had her Girl Scout thing, so Meg and I dropped her off, and headed to Walmart….*sighs* And that’s where the trouble begins….

Bought the Commit things, that help you quit smoking…I used them about a month ago, and quit smoking for about 2 weeks, and then everything got so stressful that I started smoking again…so anyway, want to quit again…but a box of those things costs like $40….but I reasoned that it was something I needed…..Bought some pony tails, again, because it was something I needed, since I only had like 2, and they seem to have vanished….And then Megan saw some barettes (spelling?), and well, they were cute, and pretty cheap, so we got them…..Had to get some plugs for my sinks, so I could do dishes and such, so that was a must…right??? *LOL*…It spiraled downhill from there….Oh wait, not so bad yet, had to get contact solution, and some allergy pills…..And then I believe that’s when things got bad for me!!!! Went to the toy section, looking for my Nephew’s birthday present, because I wasn’t sure I was going to be at a Walmart again before the his birthday….Anyway, found him a suprise (can’t tell ’cause his Mom reads this), and then we traveled over to the Legos, and I had promised that I would get the girls “the red box” if they had it, because it’s got flowers/plants/and wheels to make a car with, and that was $25…OUCH!!!!! Traveled onto the puzzle section, and got my Nephew a Spiderman puzzle, for his b-day as well…He likes Spiderman….And while there, I saw this big box of puzzles, you know the 10 puzzles in 1 box….And they had the most AWESOME pictures….and well that was another $14 I think….Got acouple of books for the kids, because Meg’s birthday is coming up, and that was another $10….Oh dear!!!! Traveled on to the jewelry department, because I needed a new watch, or a new band….Since the bands are as expensive as the watches I normally get, I just got a new watch….*sighs* and that was another $8…..And then the REAL trouble started, as we wondered into the electronics department/movies……..Went looking for a new VCR, because for some reason, mine quit working right….Anyway, that was another $40, and it’s really silly, because no one around here is even carrying the videos anymore, so why buy the VCR I asked myself….Well, the answer to that is all the videos we do have, that I haven’t gotten on DVD yet….but then while we were there, I just HAD to go looking around, and ended up getting 3 movies, in my defense, one of them was only $5.50….but I have been trying so hard to build up our movie collection, and all of them were kid/family orientated….BUT is still money that I didn’t HAVE to spend…..AND THEN, I ran across this Playstation game that I’ve been wanting since it came out, but hadn’t gotten, up til now, because when it came out I was still with someone, and he didn’t want to buy 1 player games, because then we couldn’t play together….Anyway, I was afraid if I didn’t get it pretty soon that they would quit carrying it….and then we travel on to the kids clothing sections….I did good here, probably because I didn’t find a whole lot that I liked, and the fact that I only had one of the girls with me….Now don’t take that wrong, as it isn’t them bugging for things that gets me, is the fact that I am HORRIBLE at sizing things, so almost have to have them try on everything!!! So it’s a good thing I only had 1….Did get Nephew a pair of pants for his b-day too…after spending like 45 minutes trying to find something I wanted to get him….Oh, darn, forgot about the balls in the toy section….Megan absolutely LOVES the Little Mermaid, so of course she had to find a ball that had her (the mermaid) on it, and of course, considering she had been doing so good, other then non-stop talking, I thought I’d get it for her…but then it’s not fair to get 1 something without getting the other something, and of course they happened to have a ball with the Disney Princess’s on it, which is Desi’s love, so there was another $6….Oh me, oh my, lets not forget the shoe department….went looking for sandels, because I really don’t like wearing socks or tennis shoes in the summer if I don’t have to, and neither do the girls…..soooooooooo…….I got them each a pair of what I used to call thongs, but are now called flip flops….Hopefully they don’t take after me in the respect that I CAN’T stand the little thing in between my toes, or I will have wasted $4….me on the other hand was lucky to find a pair of sandels on clearence for $5…so am happy with those purchases….Am sure I missed a few things, but who needs to count those, bill is high enough as you can see!!!!!

In some ways I’m happy with the things I got today….some where needed, like the batteries, and the razor I forgot to mention….others where just very much wanted, and will be greatly enjoyed…….BUT in a whole other way, I am feeling guilty for spending the money, especially on so many things that weren’t absolutely necesary!!! *sighs* Have you ever felt like that???

Darn, just realized something else I was going to look into getting…….I got to thinking about God and the Bible last night, praying some, and realized that I have not a clue if I still have a Bible….and not a clue as to where it would be if I did. So I was going to look into getting one again, a NIV, or Living Bible, or maybe a New King James version….I’ve read the regular King James version, but sometimes find it difficult to understand….Anyway, darn, am really upset now that I’ve remembered that I was going to get one!!! Guess someone didn’t want me reading the Bible again huh?? Well that won’t stop me, just put me off again for awhile. Have been doing a lot of praying lately, which is odd for me, at least over recent years….I’ve been more of a “God I’m in big trouble and could sure use your help, and sorry I haven’t been around much” type of prayer, but over the last week or so, have really been led to pray, especially during the nights, when all is quite here….Anyway, I guess my quest for my faith, and reaffirming my beliefs/commitment to God is proceeding….Pray for me, pray that God will guide me in the things that He wants for/from me.

Thank you for all the notes!!! Becky, I haven’t forgotten you note asking what I do and such, will probably do an entry about it tomorrow.

*hugs* and thank you for being here for me….Makes me feel better, stronger to know that you all are somewhere out there…

Just a Quick

Note tonight…or this morning, however you want to look at it…*LOL*…Is 1am, and I am at work as usual…How fun…*LOL*

Tomorrow, or later today, again, however you want to look at it, will be a busy day….Have to go to the bank, gas the car, and then head off for the Girl Scout thing…..Meg and I will go to Walmart while Desi is occupied…Oh goodie, spending more money that I don’t want to….*sighs* Sorry, just a few financial worries on my part….but most of this stuff is stuff that we need, so no getting around it….

Came in tonight and saw an Avon catalog….Am going to order a couple of things….They have these heart earring/necklace sets in birthstone colors, that I’m going to order for the kids for Christmas…And then they have a necklace, with little charm keys that have the birthstones set in  them that I’m going to order for me, for Mother’s day….*LOL* Hey, the girls are too young to do much for me for Mother’s Day, so think I will give them a hint as to what to get me, and just hand it to them to hand to me…*LOL*…I know I know, here just a minute ago I was complaining about spending money, but if I don’t buy Christmas a little at a time, the girls’ won’t have much of a Christmas, and the necklace for me is just too great to pass up….

Okay, well that’s it for me tonight….*hugs* to all the people that have left notes for me. I really enjoy hearing from you!!!!

Yuck

That’s how I’ve felt all day….not sick really…just tired, and all in all yucky.

Did I tell you that Desi has a Girl Scout thing she’s going to on Wednesday?? Come to think of it, I don’t think I’ve told you the girls are even in Girl Scouts. *LOL*…Anyway, have to drive almost an hour to get to it, but then, where I live, have to drive to go anywhere, except the small little town I live in. So anyway, she is going up for 4 hours, and will earn 2 of her science try-its (patches/badges/whatever you want to call them)…Megan and I will take Desi up, and then just go window shopping or something, as it wouldn’t make much sense for me to come an hour home, just to turn around and go back….

I was in Girl Scouts for many many years as a child. Often times it was the highlight of my life. To be able to accomplish what I needed to earn those patches. It gave me a great sense of acomplishment. It is there that I also met my lifelong friend, whom I named my daughter Desiree after. Anyway, I decided to get my girls involved with Girl Scouts, only to be somewhat disappointed in the “progress” that Girl Scouts have made over the last 7 years since I was heavily involved…When selling cookies, in my time, to get the patch, all you had to do was sell 1 box of cookies, and then the more you sold, you would also get other incentives…But I thought it was wonderful that EVERY girl could EASILY get a patch…When cookie time came around for my daughter, was suprised to find that you now have to sell 35 boxes just to get the patch…I was flabbergasted!!!! There are other differences I’ve noticed as well…At least for this council (which was NOT the one that I was in), the leader training has gone from being at least an 8 hour course, down to being 3 hours…As it turns out, I know more about policies and regulations then my daughter’s troop leader. I find it to be sad!!!!

Well anyway, that’s all for now I think….Thank you to all that have left notes!!! And am glad that you came to visit me. I hope you enjoy the visits, as much as I have enjoyed visiting your blogs!!! For all my different readers, you might want to check out my BLOGROLL, as I have some awesome people listed there!!!

Night all…..