Recently someone asked me if I would be interested in meeting an aquaintance of his, and said something to the effect that I needed more of a life than going from the trailer to the house. I needed human/adult interaction. I didn’t take offense at what he said, and agreed that he could pass my email address on to the aquaintance of his.
A few days later I excitedly received an email, and replied. That went on for a few days, made plans to go out to lunch on the weekend, etc. The whole time I was really excited about the encounter. He even came over Saturday to try and help fix the car. After that, we went, with the girls, out to eat, and then over to see his place. It was during that day that I realized that wasn’t what I wanted. It had nothing to do with the guy, he seems like a nice enough fellow, it has to do with ME.
I am happy with my life as a single parent. I am happy keeping house for Dad, and it just being the 4 of us. I realized I didn’t want that to change, that I was happy and content with my life the way it is, so why would I set out to change it?? In answer….I’m not going to!!! My life will remain as it is….The girls, Dad, and I.
For adult/human interaction, I have my Mom, brothers and sisters that I can visit, go out with, and enjoy being with. Without the strings that companionship with others seem to bring. I am still in control of my life, of my wants, needs, bills, and etc. I like my life exactly (with the exception of needing to move) the way it is, so I’m not going to change it.
I love my life!! and on that note…it’s time for me to go pick up the girls from school, go home and see how Dad is feeling.